That first time

I was recently thinking about first times, and how it felt : good or awkward that is.

Let me explain : when getting back on the dating scene, especially when it's been a while, one actually forgets or does not know anymore the appropriate steps. How far do you go, let yourself go? How should you approach someone? How quickly do you call? Do you follow "the rules"? Do you go by instinct? How will I be perceived by the other one if I do x or z?

A lot of questions. A lot of wondering. A lot of sleeplessness.

So what exactly is the "right" behavior? Is there even such a thing? My gut instinct always tells me to just go with the flow. However... big fat however. Men differ : depending on country, depending on environment, depending on open-mindedness... They always freakin' differ. Otherwise it would be too easy, and probably not interesting anyway.

I am thinking about all this stuff. Trying to find the right balance of everything, and hoping that my gut feeling is leading where I want it :)