Tired

I was thinking about the fact that I had not written in a very long time, and how I missed it. My need for venting has not gone away, on the contrary. I'd say the need has only increased with time... Mostly though, I've been feeling tired.

• Tired of the lies
• Tired of the hypocrisy
• Tired of the lack of civility
• Tired of being #2
• Tired of waiting
• Tired of bad driving
• Tired of people who don't have issues telling you how it is, but feel offended when you do the same
• Tired of headaches
• Tired of looking for a book like I was searching for the Holy Grail
• Tired of not finding CDs. I miss buying original CDs.
• Tired of people who don't queue
• Tired of lack of professionalism
• Tired of lack of ethics
• Tired of waiting (i know i've said it before)
• Tired of lack of humanity
• Tired of lack of decency
• Tired of harissa in every freaking dish
• Tired of not being able to have a normal relationship
• Tired of not finding normal, regular people

I am not quite sure what to do to stop feeling this tired. I'm trying, really trying.

Slacking

I know, sadly for myself, that I am not the most organized person. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that I'd rather (almost always) do something else. This organization (or lack of it) touches many aspects of my life... I make lists, I write down the things that I should do daily, weekly, or monthly. I do do these things for a while, and then... then I don't. I am not sure if this is due to a lack of motivation, if I'd just rather lay down and watch James Bond, or what... I don't know, and I seriously would like to change this.

There's always this conflict in the morning: sleep 10 more minutes or make my bed/wash yesterday's dishes/etc... The conflict at night after getting home after work: tidying up a little, doing the little house chores, washing the dishes that I did not wash in the morning, ... or... or ordering a pizza, having something fresh to drink, putting my feet on the table and watching some movie.

The conflict is always between what I'd really like to do and what I should be doing. And after a couple of days of doing what I want to be doing (which means slacking), I get fed up of the mess, and clean.... Because I hate living in a mess... I know it's a contradiction, but that's how it is, and I am desperately (well... it's all relative you know...) trying to find a solution to this...

Any Advice?