after much thought...

I decided, after much much thought, that whomever had a problem with my attitude can just f*ck off.

Now, I am not saying that there's not always room for self-improvement, but I will not cater to your inferiority complex, your unecessarily complicated vision of life, or your overtly sensitiveness.

So there. I feel much better now after getting to this conclusion. If you find offense with me, go see a shrink and simplify your existence.

Cheers on a sunny day.

Introspection

I was thinking about how differently we can appear to one person or to another. Occasionally, we put on different faces, it's true. You behave differently depending on whether you talk to your boss, to your client, to your colleague, to your mother, to your friend, or to your aunt. We need to behave differently because each one knows us from a different aspect. In fact, the whole of "one", of the Ego is only truly known to ourselves. And in fact, do we really know who we are? It's a difficult question... it all depends on perception and perception differs from one person to another.

The concept of introspection is new and is very well... unreliable. How objective can one be about oneself? And why is it that if you behave the same way towards friend A or friend B, that A perceives you differently than B? Is it because the sensitivities of A are different from B? Does one need more care than the other? And if A perceives you differently, should you care?

Again, more random thoughts, and this time, on a rainy day... But I'd be curious to hear what you guys think, or if you've read something that you deem interesting. Introspection is all about perception, and both are difficult concepts to grasp.

Superstition

I was thinking this weekend over the concept of superstition... What it is, what it means, and why we have it. Some of the things are common to regions, some are found in countries. For example, in the mediterranean, there is the concept of the evil eye. The evil eye is similar to being jinxed... it means that people, with envy (and there bad eye), will bring you misfortune. In order to protect yourself from the evil eye, you wear a pendant or a bracelet or whatever... Another concept in North Africa is the hand of fatima, which you have on yourself, and should be made of silver. In India, seeing a young girl in the morning means you will have a good day, whereas seeing a widow means the countrary. Some concepts are (almost) universal, such as seeing a black cat... or knocking on wood for good fortune.

How exactly did these concept come to be? Why should it be made out of silver, and how did the design of this evil eye develop? What is it with black cats? Does believing in one thing or the other affect you as a person? Is superstition like a placebo?

Does a string of bad luck means you are unlucky (and what is luck anyway?) or that you were "stricken" with the bad eye? Or is it just cause and consequence in some weird cosmic order of things that made things the way they are?

I am a strong believer in cause and consequence and when a random event keeps on repeating itself, I just wonder.

Perhaps superstition is a way, a reason for us humans, to justify the bad things, the random sh*t that hits all of us ones in a while. If it is a nasty day, it must be the evil eye, or the black cat, or the widow. It can't be because you were clumsy and tired, and you hit yourself, or a colleague infected you with a virus, or a drunk driver hit you, and it just happened to be you, not the person after you. And if it's a nasty string that is hitting you, perhaps sacrificing a lamb will help improve your karma.

Random thoughts on a sunny day...

it is over yet?

I very badly want this week to be over. Haven't had the opportunity to even read other blogs or news or anything. Just work and trying to recover mentally and physically. I think I'm going to spend the weekend baking (it always relaxes me) and distribute to friends and family... In the meantime counting down the hours to end of the business day...

Different peeing techniques

So I am (for now) in a very interesting work environment. I am the only female, surrounded by guy colleagues. It's a very interesting atmosphere, and it really helps that I grew up with male cousins and that throughout school, most of my good friends were guys... Anyway...

The point of this blog is ... well... peeing. As you all know (I hope), men and women pee differently. For women, in public places, there is the hover technique, the put paper-all-over technique, the just-f*ck-it-i'm-sitting technique, and many others (please do share yours).

For guys, I guess, and correct me if I'm wrong, there is the, lift or no lift technique. I can tell that at work, these are the 2 ones used, because either the seat is lifted, or I find "remnants" over the seat. So the question is, why is it so hard to aim? Or is it some sort of pleasure to just sing a song and sway from left to right while peeing? What is it that unables you guys (some of you at least) to pee on the seat?

Come on now guys... Just pee (some pun intended hehe)

The art of pressure aka nagging

I hate it. I f*cking hate those who nag, those who will ask me the same damned question over and over and over again. I just... urgh. Either these people have a short term memory and forgot that they've already asked me the same question so many times... Or, I don't know. I guess some people just enjoy doing it, or just don't realize it.

Sometimes this comes from your boss, your parent, a friend, or whatever. And well, just... F*ck off, ok. I know what I need to do, I know the delays, and f*ck, I'll do it when I get around doing it.

Ok. I feel better. I just hate being pressured, and I had to hurt the keyboard.

Soap box

I realized that blogging was somewhat therapeutic... Subzeroblue talked about blogging vs. psychiatry, and I realized that my blog enabled me not only to vent, but share this venting... Meaning, I can climb on my soap box, I'll have a small audience who will be with or against me, and frankly, I like that (I know that sounds corny).

These days, for everyone and for different reasons, one feels more pressure, be it from the boss, your mom, your significant other, your colleagues, or anyone in general around you... And knowing that you can let off steam and sometimes learn a way to deal with it through a blog is a good healthy economical solution.

So thanks readers for being my shrinks ;)

still waiting...

Nothing much going on, still waiting to hear news about my car... Checking for delays, production dates, etc... So I guess I am a bit antsy about it because I want to get it out of the way and drive my 16 inch alloy wheels...

On another note, an interesting quote from Heart Seizure:
"He had once said, "Look. If you're wealthy when a candidate takes office, you'll be wealthy when a candidate leaves office, assuming you don't lose money yourself. Conversely, if you're poor when a candidate takes office, then, absent your own efforts to improve your position, you'll be poor when that candidate leaves office. We politicians might make it slightly easier or a little more difficult to improve your net worth, but most of the work is up to the people" (page 188).

This is interesting in itself as people always vote for this or that issue, and always think in the end about their pocketbook... Few vote on issues, and issues in and of themselves cannot be the only drive you have to vote for a candidate. You cannot just look at one thing and vote for this or that candidate because in the end you are limiting yourself... At the same time, politicians won't make you wealthier, it is up to you to suck it up, buckle up, and just do it (work that is ;)

Sense of priorities

What an ass wipe. I am referring to Bush, and him requesting more money to fund war. Instead of cash being spent on education, public housing, or people stricken by the hurricane, he is feeding this war machine that is bringing nothing productive. Only death, destruction, and further head from the rest of the world.

Bush is giving the US such a nasty reputation as a country... Because let's face it, people will associate the leader with the people, despite the fact that he "won" under the weirdest circumstances and that most people (sadly) did not go to vote. But it's a shame, and I bet the drilling in Alaska and other places will restart (or commence) to further feed his ego maniacal crazy ego.

Can you say beump?

In the famous words of Inspector Clouseau "(I) have received a beump upon the head" (from the movie, The Pink Panther Strikes Again)... Why you ask? Because I am reaching to get a CD from the car, and "beumped" my head against the bloody car... Mind you, with such force, that I did get a bump within a minute or even less (I kid you not). You can't imagine the pain, and the burning you feel when you apply ice... It has not turned blue (for now), and thanks to pain killers, I was able to sleep relatively smoothly... It still hurts when I touch it, and I swear, if I remember which stupid ass CD it was, I will trample it.

Grant it, it was my stupidity, but still, I am blaming the CD. So there. Thankfully, I've not noticed any changes in brain functions... but please, if I start listening to hip hop or teen bop music, talking rubish about the green party or the left, let me know, and I'll go and get my head examined...

what's shaking

* Opinions are like assholes, everyone's got one (George Carlin)
* Tunisians are always in a hurry and always late (mine)

Nothing much going on really, just work, and reading... I've been feeling very much in a weird mood... I'm listening to Fearless (Pink Floyd, Meddle) almost 4 or 5 times a day, and I guess it makes me happy and sad at the same time (particularly the following lyrics: You pick the place and I'll choose the time / And I'll climb / That hill in my own way / Just wait a while for the right day.

Otherwise, advancing nicely with my reading, and already looking forward to the weekend...

Depending on how today goes, I might have brilliant news soon (can you say 16 inch rims?)

;)